Thoughts and Inspirations through the Journey! :)

Hey blog, it’s been a while.

I’m not entirely sure why I haven’t taken the time to write.  Oh, how I could make excuses.  I’ve got this mental illness.  I’ve got a boyfriend.  Yeah, well, I know writers with families and other commitments and they still do it.  But even as it hits me I find myself remembering: yeah, well, you’re not them, are you?  That’s true, I’m not.

So here I am.  Finally.  At the keys, typing.  And oh, how it feels good to be here.  Be in this moment.  Mindfulness.  As much as I fight to focus, some days…most days…it is so hard.

I’ve got a purring cat next to me, happy to have taken over my chair as I sit typing on my bed, laptop on the ottoman before me.  I’ve got a phone just next to me on the bed, where I await the notification light to blink at any given moment to capture my attention, yet again.  Focus can be difficult, indeed.

It reminds me of one of my favorite poems on Levi the Poet, by which he writes in’The Teacher Speaks’: “ I have not written or prayed for days and days and days and days and days and days and day AND DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS AND DAYS!”  For those that know the spoken lyric, they know the power and emphasis placed upon every word.  That’s the sort of emotion I could only hope to be captured in the moments of my deeper writings, or ramblings…whichever.  

I could chalk up my lack of writing to my new graphics tablet, to which I have released creative outlet through art, but that wouldn’t be fair as that only accounts for the last few weeks.  So there’s not much to say here today, but maybe that’s okay.  Maybe it’s a sign by which things are getting better.  I can only hope.  I can only pray.